And then comes the winter....

I was warned the first winter would be rough. I think I thought those words of warning we related to the weather and not to that deep sense of isolation and loneliness. Maybe they were talking about the weather I don't know. I don't think the weather is that bad and driving up here in the winter so far hasn't been anything that I thought it would be. I have had my moments of loneliness but the last few weeks its hit hard. I am used to eating with my family every sunday afternoon now I most sundays I drive home open the fridge stare a few minutes close the fridge and eat yet another can of spaghetti o's. Don't get me wrong I love spaghettio's. I just miss having a lunch table full of conversation and coloring with my nephew or teasing each other by taking food when he's not looking. I got used to go out after saturday night service with a group of people I could relate to for one of the first times in my life. I miss meeting with an awesome group of ladies wednesday night at the frandor beaners for life group. I know this is a good move I just miss the sense of community I had downstate. Growing up isn't easy I know. I am thankful for my job and haven't forgotten that I prayed,we all prayed that if this is where God wanted me he would put the pieces to the puzzle together every piece fell into its perfect place so i know I am where God wants me. I just have to trust he's gonna bring the right people into my life to help fill the wholes.I need to remind myself of ps 32:8 "I will guide you along the best path for your life I will watch over you and advise you."