Homesick

The day I arrived I had pretty mixed emotions, but was still feeling excited and adventurous.The sun went down and morning came and morning turned into early afternoon which turned into the goodbye that made this all a reality.After having lunch with my parents and two of my friends from paradise I had to say goodbye to my parents. I felt like a little girl being dropped off at summer camp all over again.I couldn't help but cry.Over the course of the next couple of days I called home several times a day. The cabin I was staying in suddenly felt like the other end of the earth.I even considered going home thinking this wasn't such a good idea.I was beginning to doubt was this really what god wanted or me wanting this to be what god wanted.But wise people( my parents and a few close friends) remided me that stepping out in faith and trusting God isn't suppose to be easy.Working helped but what helped most was my youngest sister and I figured out how to use Skype so I was able to see and talk to my neice and nephew. My sister even took her webcam to my parents house and I was able to see and talk to them.There is an internet cafe called Moose du nord near the cabin I was staying in I would grab a chia tea or hot chocolate be able to catch up on facebook and email so that helped out too. My mom and my youngest sister and my neice and nephew came up last weekend and we went to the soo and that was better than skype. I am still a little homesick but it gets a little better each day. I moved into my house this week so now I am less than two minutes from work. I have easier access to what feels more like civilization than I had out at the cabin. I am really looking forward to seeing my mom and my dad and my older brother this coming week! Since home is where the heart is I guess I will always be a little homesick since my heart is now in two different places!